jen 🦋 (@jenischmedding)

last month

hi this will be a bit of a longer caption so read if you would like : ) As this semester ended and the news of what the next few months or more may look like, I was struggling to find anything right now to make things feel okay. Now if you know me, I’m always taking videos or pictures of everything, to the point people get annoyed whoops. In moments where I feel like life is okay I want to capture that to be able to look back on when things are not so great, to simply remind myself it will be okay. All of these clips are from the last few months of little memories that won’t be taken for granted again. In times where it feels like troubles consume us and negativity fills our world, it’s really hard to see the positives in all of it. There is always a light at the end of the tunnel, focusing on only the darkness surrounding you won’t get you out of the tunnel, finding that light, even if it’s little, is what will help move you forward. A lot of things are out of our control, and for the last few months I allowed that to overwhelm me, just stopped trying. I realize though being stuck in this low mindset won’t change a thing about what’s going on, rather trying to making the best out of all of this is the key. Trying your best to look on the bright side of things. Appreciate the hard times in life as much as the good times, because you cannot have one without the other. You can not have day without night. Now I felt like making and writing this out because it was laid on my heart, in times where things are okay, I ask God to use me for His good. Yet as soon as things get rough I lose sight of my faith, I lose myself. Rather than giving up on myself, I want to be a light, be positive. This year so far has really taught me the lesson to not take anything for granted, because quite literally it can be taken away at any moment. Even when things are hard, don’t give up and wait for it to pass, but make the most out of it. Be a beacon for others, because you never know what someone may be going through. And most importantly don’t lose yourself or your faith, but grow from the hard times.